Prayers Needed for my Grandson

[eye]

Your words to my friend Jazz has not only touched her but has touched our very soul. For that I thank you.Sometimes we are tested and I call myself a deciple and they make fun of me. Some of us go through life not as easy as some and I truly believe we have been the chosen ones. For what purpose--- perhaps to give faith to the fallen---perhaps to show the way and perhaps to let others know yes their is A God.I too am not a religious person but like you I also was given the gift of peace and try to pass this on to as many as I can.I too have stopped asking "why me "when I was given an answer to yes there is a heaven.Not only an answer but actually seen part of Heaven.And yes their is one and answer to all the IF'S.I was not only left peaceful but also was given a special gift.So may God Bless yah all form my Nova Scotia home.
Thank you Terry for awakening so many
eye

[angle]

Hi Jazz,
Just checking in on you, I keep you and Andrew in my prayers, and I know how God has a way of working everything out. I wanted to tell you that I just Love you!! I found scrapbook max by accident one evening, I have always loved pictures, and creating, but I wanted to combine the two, so I started exploring digital scrapbooking, I owned a couple of other programs, but they always seemed to be lacking.. Then I found scrapbook max, did the trial version and was sold on the software immediately, that was just a beginning. I started visting the forum, (just a lurker) I would read the posts, and look at the new creations and just smile. One day I finally started posting, I have never been one to get close very easy, I think that is the military wife in me... We moved so often, and I got so tired of saying good-bye... I just never let anyone in.. Here at scrapbook max I have found such a warm little gathering that I think of as family..... from everywhere in the world.. and I don't have to say good-bye. I love you all like family... I thank God for each of you, and all your special qualities that just make you who you are. I got so much more when I bought Scrapbook Max, something much more than software. My own little scrap-happy family. Jazz, I think you are an amazing woman.. Keep hanging in there, we all will keep praying and I know it will all be exactly what you need and when you need it.
OK... I am rambling on and on..
God Bless You and
BIG HUGS !! Give Andrew one too
Trish

[Gotart]

I was so touched by Terry W's letter to Jazz that I had to find this article that I had kept at my desk at work for years. I wanted to preserve & Share this battered article before I lost it. It always touched my heart....

This is for Jazz & AutisticWonder and all the Mother's & Grandmother's of Our Special Children..
April is Autistic Awareness month & this is my Tribute.

http://www.scrapbookmax.com/gallery/...5&limit=recent

[pkdoll]

Gotart-that was really special!! Now I know why God didn't pick me! As a child I always wallowed in self pity. I wasn't pretty, my parents didn't have much money so I grew up in hand me downs, I was a middle child and felt like I was always getting shortchanged on everything. Kids picked on me at school because of the hand me downs and things like that. Kids were always laughing at me and I was always afraid to raise my hand in class to answer questions, because if I was wrong I was scared to death they would laugh at me, and I would feel so humilated. I married the first guy that asked me because I was afraid no one else would ever ask. He was an alcoholic and the marriage didn't last long, but it did produce my first son. As it turns out I have lived with a very low self esteem my whole life. I have always settled for less, and have never fought for anything I wanted. I have always settled for second best or worse. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!! and I'm 51 years old. You would think that by now I would have found something that makes me feel satisfied with where I am in life. You don't know how extremely difficult it is for me to post anything on this forum. Because deep down inside I feel that no one here cares what I have to say or will just ignore my posts, and quite honestly I feel that a lot of my posts have been ignored like I never wrote anything. What makes it worse is I see a lot of my own low self esteem issues in my children as well. I tell them that they need to stand up for themselves, and that there is so much good in them and I wish they could just see that. It is so easy for me to give them encouragement and praise-but yet I have never believed in myself, so how can I make them believe it??? Don't get me wrong, people look up to me at work, and I hear people say positive things about me all the time. They tell me I don't give myself enough credit, that I'm a great friend and that I care too much about not hurting someone's feelings. That is what makes my position as a manager very difficult, because when I have to reprimand someone I find it very difficult because I don't want to hurt their feelings. My boss tells me I'm too good and too soft, but that's why she likes me because when she gets upset and wants to blow up at someone or fire them on the spot she comes to me first because she knows that I will bring up their good points and defend them in some way or another and it gives her time to think about it and not do something she may regret.

Wow Terry W you really opened up a can of worms here!! This has to be an exceptional group of special people for me to open up and admit to all this. I don't open up to anyone, not even my honey. I'm sorry if I have bored any of you-and I hope that you don't think less of me now, but I just had this overwhelming need to say all this.

Jazz you and your family are in my prayers, and I am just so happy that Terry has such an excellent way with words, because so many people here care so much and may not be able to express it as well as others, but the meaning is the same. Crops LAF is perfect!!! We should all have a LAF day for our own spirituality and self healing, and to commend Linda and others in the same situations. Everyone needs someone or something to love and care about! No one should have to be alone in their journeys through life!

I absolutely love this scrapping family and all the joy it brings to my life everyday, and to be able to share in a small part of everyone's lives as well. Not to mention all the freebies I get

[nanwu]

Jazz, you, your family and your grandson are all in my prayers

[*eng*]

Gotart-that was really special!! Now I know why God didn't pick me! As a child I always wallowed in self pity. I wasn't pretty, my parents didn't have much money so I grew up in hand me downs, I was a middle child and felt like I was always getting shortchanged on everything. Kids picked on me at school because of the hand me downs and things like that. Kids were always laughing at me and I was always afraid to raise my hand in class to answer questions, because if I was wrong I was scared to death they would laugh at me, and I would feel so humilated. I married the first guy that asked me because I was afraid no one else would ever ask. He was an alcoholic and the marriage didn't last long, but it did produce my first son. As it turns out I have lived with a very low self esteem my whole life. I have always settled for less, and have never fought for anything I wanted. I have always settled for second best or worse. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!! and I'm 51 years old. You would think that by now I would have found something that makes me feel satisfied with where I am in life. You don't know how extremely difficult it is for me to post anything on this forum. Because deep down inside I feel that no one here cares what I have to say or will just ignore my posts, and quite honestly I feel that a lot of my posts have been ignored like I never wrote anything. What makes it worse is I see a lot of my own low self esteem issues in my children as well. I tell them that they need to stand up for themselves, and that there is so much good in them and I wish they could just see that. It is so easy for me to give them encouragement and praise-but yet I have never believed in myself, so how can I make them believe it??? Don't get me wrong, people look up to me at work, and I hear people say positive things about me all the time. They tell me I don't give myself enough credit, that I'm a great friend and that I care too much about not hurting someone's feelings. That is what makes my position as a manager very difficult, because when I have to reprimand someone I find it very difficult because I don't want to hurt their feelings. My boss tells me I'm too good and too soft, but that's why she likes me because when she gets upset and wants to blow up at someone or fire them on the spot she comes to me first because she knows that I will bring up their good points and defend them in some way or another and it gives her time to think about it and not do something she may regret.

Wow Terry W you really opened up a can of worms here!! This has to be an exceptional group of special people for me to open up and admit to all this. I don't open up to anyone, not even my honey. I'm sorry if I have bored any of you-and I hope that you don't think less of me now, but I just had this overwhelming need to say all this.

I understand what you are saying Gotart. Lack of confidence and low self esteem have moved with you and it is a hard thing to deal with. I am a manager as well and I found it so difficult to do my job because I hated to say anything that sounded like criticism. I used to avoid it if I could and it took me a long time to realise that I would be held responsible for them doing a bad job unless I forced myself to say! I now have a checklist that I use and I write down certain things and give to them which is for them to address, may be something simple, but it gives evidence that I've dealt with it and it gives them the opportunity to put it right. My manager and I work alongside each other and do more or less the same, she has overall responsibility for the sevice. She is opposite to me, does not mind confrontion and says it as it is. I do the letters and memo's to staff and respond in writing to complaints etc. because she hates that side Jayne will visit people along with me , but she does all the 'nasty' bits lol! She says you deal with that one because I'll say something I regret. She says that some of my team would drive her mad. People say we compliment each other because we share our abilities. Jayne rings me up to sound off because she knows I'll just listen and when she's finished ranting she feels better! We are best friends as as well as a result of meeting through work. You have loads of qualities that are admired and people mean what they say and it sounds as if you have a very similar working relationship to us and you are the same age as me . The only problem would be if she left....I don't know how I'd manage, but I think that I would be better prepared now, I'll have to cross that bridge if it happens.

How can we be bored by you, think less of you because of your post. You are a member of SBM!
Just remember you are good at your job, you have a caring nature and you are very important and loved by many and you are you, very special

[*eng*]

Sorry that was pkdoll got mixed up with the start LOL

[*eng*]

That was a very moving post Terry, thank you for posting that

[Marion]

PkDoll, don't ever feel ignored here. There just simply isn't enough time to answer every post. I am spending waaaaayyyy to much time every day as it is on here. I really do care about each and every post and I care about you!
So don't feel neglected or slighted, I am sure that we are all in the same spot here. I still have a job, babysit my grandkids and dogs and a husband and a house to take care of, emails to answer, bills to pay etc. there is hardly time for scrapping! Any way hope you know we care!

[eye]

Gotart-that was really special!! Now I know why God didn't pick me! As a child I always wallowed in self pity. I wasn't pretty, my parents didn't have much money so I grew up in hand me downs, I was a middle child and felt like I was always getting shortchanged on everything. Kids picked on me at school because of the hand me downs and things like that. Kids were always laughing at me and I was always afraid to raise my hand in class to answer questions, because if I was wrong I was scared to death they would laugh at me, and I would feel so humilated. I married the first guy that asked me because I was afraid no one else would ever ask. He was an alcoholic and the marriage didn't last long, but it did produce my first son. As it turns out I have lived with a very low self esteem my whole life. I have always settled for less, and have never fought for anything I wanted. I have always settled for second best or worse. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!! and I'm 51 years old. You would think that by now I would have found something that makes me feel satisfied with where I am in life. You don't know how extremely difficult it is for me to post anything on this forum. Because deep down inside I feel that no one here cares what I have to say or will just ignore my posts, and quite honestly I feel that a lot of my posts have been ignored like I never wrote anything. What makes it worse is I see a lot of my own low self esteem issues in my children as well. I tell them that they need to stand up for themselves, and that there is so much good in them and I wish they could just see that. It is so easy for me to give them encouragement and praise-but yet I have never believed in myself, so how can I make them believe it??? Don't get me wrong, people look up to me at work, and I hear people say positive things about me all the time. They tell me I don't give myself enough credit, that I'm a great friend and that I care too much about not hurting someone's feelings. That is what makes my position as a manager very difficult, because when I have to reprimand someone I find it very difficult because I don't want to hurt their feelings. My boss tells me I'm too good and too soft, but that's why she likes me because when she gets upset and wants to blow up at someone or fire them on the spot she comes to me first because she knows that I will bring up their good points and defend them in some way or another and it gives her time to think about it and not do something she may regret.

Wow Terry W you really opened up a can of worms here!! This has to be an exceptional group of special people for me to open up and admit to all this. I don't open up to anyone, not even my honey. I'm sorry if I have bored any of you-and I hope that you don't think less of me now, but I just had this overwhelming need to say all this.

Jazz you and your family are in my prayers, and I am just so happy that Terry has such an excellent way with words, because so many people here care so much and may not be able to express it as well as others, but the meaning is the same. Crops LAF is perfect!!! We should all have a LAF day for our own spirituality and self healing, and to commend Linda and others in the same situations. Everyone needs someone or something to love and care about! No one should have to be alone in their journeys through life!

I absolutely love this scrapping family and all the joy it brings to my life everyday, and to be able to share in a small part of everyone's lives as well. Not to mention all the freebies I get

All I can say is time was created by God to heal us.No one can help us but this preciuos gift.From experience of low esteem and no friends I learned to live now for today as the past is gone and the future never comes. We are here for the moment and we should give ourselves this time to enjoy each second.
I was always made fun of.Never trusted to have a friend.Do not trust any man.I think I am ugly,fat,big nose and I could go on and on but God gave me this time which produced Wisdom and now I am quite happy. I wake up every morning happy as now I live in the moment and have forgotten the past of mean things.Life has many pitholes and now I have finally stopped falling.My Life is Now at 56 and it has never been better.