Hi everyone.... I apologize for the silence...I hope everyone is doing well...I have been through the ringer and back...and still suffering...but I have decided to fight thru it all and get back into what I love to do just to keep my mind off it all....
My medical stuff is getting so bad...since august I have been in and out of the hospital so many times i cant even count them anymore...but i have to have my fistula ballooned every 10 weeks due to the vein closing up...which is torture...soon i go in to have a graft put in that area in hopes it stays open longer...when they put the needles in for dialysis i am in tears it hurts so bad....and i.m pretty good with pain...
Then the bottom part of my amputated leg was getting ice cold, so just last week i went in for my normal fistulagram and they ballooned it open again, and also went in to take pictures of the veins in my stump area...here i had a huge blockage in my stomach which they stented and then had to balloon an area in the lower part of my amputated leg to get more blood flow or i would have lost more of that leg....i also had some weird skin thing on my face...and i am vomiting al the time for no reason...went to have a GI scope done and they had to stretch out my throat and lower stomach area because my food isn't digesting fast enough....so now i have reflux esophagitis and gastroparesis....so they added like 5 more pills to my long list already...ugh....i'm still dealing with my eye issue and so far there is no change...doc says it won't be long and i will be blind in that eye...but even after all this,I;m feeling better..
Then as my bad enough, my luck follows me....On Dec 18th my honey proposed, and I was so happy,,,,U thought, "finally something was going right in my life"....but that as well was crashed to the ground when I found out that I would lose ALOT of my medical insurance if we got married cause he makes too much money...Seriously? The one thing I thought I had control over to be happy....well not this time AGAIN.....so basically I have this black cloud over me and it is not leaving anytime soon...

I complained enough....lol....I basically wanted to say i was back and if I need to catch up on anything, please let me know...thanks...<Love and Hugs> Michelle.