Hello my dear friends:

[Smile]

Do to certain things in my life I am living in Dartmouth with my sister at the moment. Because of my husbands temper I had to leave. This has been so hard for me. I am going to councling at the moment and just trying to stop feeling like I am at fault. I have been married for almost 38 years and believe me this is so so hard. I love him with all my heart and soul. I feel so old and tired at times. The doctors think that he may be in a depression or that it could be altzimers. But he does not even believe that he has done anything wrong. My kids have tried to talk to him but he just changes the subject and will not go to a doctor. I don't know what I would have done without Eye and Carol and all my other family and friends. If I get through a day without crying I am doing good. Know that I miss and care what happens with all of you .Will try and keep intouch. Please pray for me.......all my love Lois......xoxoxo

[Winnie49]

Sweetie! iam so sorry to hear this sad news know you are in my prayers and you are in my heart, remember when the day is more dark its because the sun is comming.
hugs
wendy

[eye]

I need your phone number.Pm me with it please.Chin up.Remember what I told you you are not at fault.It takes courage to do what you have done and I am proud of you.Miss yah.

[Granny]

Smile, this is one of the saddest things I have heard. I'm so sorry. I will keep my messenger open in case you want to talk. If not, I understand too. Just hope you find a solution to this. My prayers are with you, and hope you can feel my little (hmmm) arms around you!

Love ya...

Granny

[crops2dawn]

Baby steps my friend!! Reach out to everyone you know and you'll find your answers...Each day you wake up its a new day filled with so much and there is light at the end of the tunnel. You will get through this, you're tougher than you think!!! You may not think so now, but you will!!! Love ya!!!!

[Marion]

I'll pray that God will touch and soften your husbands heart. 38 years of marriage is no small thing. But God can soften and change even the hardest heart and things can still work out for you. In the mean time hang in there! We love you!

[makeyesup]

My prayers are with you. Try to keep that 'smile' on your face. Can't imagine what you are going through, only know that it must be extremely hard to walk away. Hope that he gets the help he needs.

[O2BNGdHope]

I'm so sad for you. And here I've been thinking you were spending your summer "by the ocean" fishing and sunbathing. I've been where you are (although we weren't together as long as you and your husband) and there is always a period of time where you just don't understand what happened to get you to this point. He may be ill and have no control of his temper (which ironically is the best scenario in this case. It means he can be helped.) or he could be a total jerk and Eye just didn't tell you. (That was supposed to be a joke, laugh a little now. Aww...come on. Just a little smile?) But either way, the pain is the same. Don't give up on your life together. Things may work out yet. Maybe he truly is ill. Does he have any friends he would confide in? That would then confide in you? Can your shared friends help you in any way? Give you any insight into his feelings? Just don't take the blame all on yourself. Yes, it's a two-way street, and looking back there's always something we could or should have done but I have inside knowledge that the one hurt the most is the one least to blame. No matter what THEY say! They always want to push the guilt they're feeling over on the other party. Keep your spirits up. Let Eye take you out for lunch then a trip to the day spa and, if you want him, fight to keep him. We're here for you when you need another shoulder. And if you need a bat to knock some sense into him, we'll be right over to help! Love ya, Smile!

[omajo]

So sad to hear this Smile, I was concerned for your absence here. I thought you are enjoying your holiday and lots of fishing. Listen to what Marion said, God can soften his temper. I 'll pray for you Smile.
Take care of yourself
oxox

[wolvsie35]

Smiles, I am so sorry to hear this...One thing I know from experience, sometimes walking away makes them look at things from a different point of view...So something good could come out of it, like others said, take baby steps...I will be praying for you as well...((HUGS))