Hello Friends

[jazzieal]

I'm home from rehab and doing so much better...I have a heart so full of love and gratitude for all of you...I just cant find words to express how I feel..I dont think there are ANY words that will do that...I do know I would not be where I am today if it hadn't been for all of your prayers...my oxygen stats have been in the high 90's since rehab and thats very unsual for me...I got my apartment...I sign the lease on Monday and hope to be all moved in to stay the night Monday, even if I have to get the rest of my things on Tuesday..not taking a lot of furniture from the house...thats one reason I have not been on line...I knew if I came on I would be on here for hrs (and I have) and I have so much to still pack...I appreciate ALL the comments and kind words and the beautiful flowers and the money...I was so shocked and overwhelmed at that act of kindness..I know yall... for the most part... are just like me and some have a very hard time making ends meet and to think you took money you need and sent it for me..well I just cant say thank you enough..just the number of post is so awesome..this has been a very hard time..children are not supposed to die before their parents..Lori did everything for me and I miss her soo much..I dont know what I am going to do without her...but the Lord knows best and he never makes mistakes so one day I will know the why..I do know she is with the Lord and that gives me great comfort..I had been trying to go in her room and could not bring myself to go..the door stays closed all the time..the other day Josh and his GF were in there and Cathy was here and I told her..today is the day..so I went in the room and sat down on the corner of the bed and IMMEDIATELY fell off in the floor..it was just like Lori pushed me off and said DONT BE SAD..Josh and Chase pulled me up and helped me get in a chair..Chase has not been in the room since the day they found her..and he didnt like coming in the room but he did..he was and always has been a Mamas baby so its been very hard for him....Josh is pitiful also...it broke my heart I had to be away from them when they needed me so much..well my friends I have a lot to tell you that will have to wait until I finish packing and get moved..the internet is supposed to be turned on Monday sometime so I will try and get on line Monday night and let you know if I got moved in..
I love all of you so so much and appreciate all you have done for me and my family...Love Jazz

[O2BNGdHope]

Jazz! It's so good to see you back! Take it easy, don't over do. Let the boys move things for you. (I know that's hard to do but be careful! We don't want to be without you on here again!)

[nanwu]

wow Jazz, welcome home. Glad to hear about your apartment. You have been so missed by everyone, keep healing and we will keep praying, you are always in my thoughts (and your family). Glad your back

[makeyesup]

Jazz, it is so good to hear from you. Please don't overdo with the move or anything else. We want you to recover completely and not have any more relapses. I can't even imagine losing a child. The only thing that I can say is she is with God and is your Guardian angel. Take care and know that we love you.

[sacannon]

Linda it is sooooo good to see you in here. I am so glad you are feeling better and that you got the apartment. Please take all the time you need to get settled. We all understand.

I can't imagine how that was for you to go in Lori's room. I lost my father, but it is not the same as losing a daughter. You are right, Parents are not suppose to outlive there children, but it does happen and I am so sorry it happened to you.

Please take care and don't over do!

[pkdoll]

JAZZZ!!! I am so excited to see you online!! I love you and miss you bunches!!! Now please go pack my dear friend! I f I was there I would be helping you!! But, unfortunately I can't make the trip, so I will be there with you in spirit!! Take it easy-and I know that you are going to be so happy at your new apartment!! Love ya GF!!

[eye]

You did the right thing Jazz by going in Lori's room.Now the healing willbegin.I luv yah Jazz and wish you the best.Take it easy on the moving.Looking forward to seeing you back online.

[angelwithin]

so wonderful to see you back Linda :D

now listen to what everyone has said and DONT overdo it!!! or we'll all be round to slap your wrists :eek:

take your time in getting settled

love ya xx

[Smile]

I am just sitting here crying my silly head of after reading your letter. I wish I could just reach out and hug you.........Love you my dear friend......xoxoxo

[Marion]

Wonderful to have you back..............I'll just leave it at that.

[Jenna's mommy]

Hi Jazz glad you are back,take things easy don't want you ending up in hospital again, we miss you so much when you are gone and feel sad for all what happened there prayers are with you and your family still ok.
Love ya

[Granny]

Welcome back, our kind and gentle friend. Please, let our hugs and kisses surround and confort you. We are so delighted to have you back. Take your time, help the boys to heal, and it will heal you.

Great big hug!!!!

Granny

[spanielmom]

Aahhh Jazz! Its so darned good to see you back on here. Don't think the prayers will stop. I for one will continue to pray that your oxygen levels will stay where they need to be. Take it easy moving. You don't want to over do it. We all just love you so much!

[crops2dawn]

JAZZ!!!!! This is the best Easter ever!!!! I am sooo happy to see you on here again! We all miss you sooo much! Just take things slow, I know how overwhelming it can be when ya move, let the grandsons do all the heavy lifting!!! I know its gonna be sad to move out of that house, all those memories, but know that no one can take those memories from you EVER!
My thoughts and prayers are always with you and your family!
Love ya Bunches!!!! XOXOXO

[Winnie49]

Linda!!! Dear!!!!! i'am so happy to see you around !!! things are better and will be better each day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As you said God give us situations for a reason and we just accept them, someday we will understand just need to be little strong to accept it! but your are an extraordinary wonder woman so keep your time to fix things at home and hope to see you later!
all our love sweetie and best wishes
baci

[MaggieMae]

So happy to read your post today, Jazzie! It's wonderful, wonderful to know that you are getting better and that you have felt all the love and prayers that have been sent to you. We are just so happy to have you back - please take care of yourself!!

[rosana brito]

Jazz, and an immense joy to see that this of health better!
You it is necessary lack for all in, why we love you of truth!
Its pain and ours also, are certain of this ok
This always in ours preces, we know how much and the difficult to lose a son
But as you it said Mr. Jesus knows what makes,
It always in the ones of the one pack that can load now?
Either strong Jazz. As it always was !
God Loves you much, e has good things for giving ok to it
One I hug fort, of who admires you very
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[fourfoxes]

Jazz, I know we don't really know each other (yet!) but I just felt so close after reading all the threads. I am so glad that you are feeling better physically. My prayers are with you and the boys that you can start healing emotionally as well.
It is wonderful to hear that you have a new apartment to live in. (I wish we could all be there to help you out with the packing and unpacking!)
You are right about the parents outliving the children. That is exactly what my mom said when my brother passed. You're right that Lori is with the Lord. I'm glad that you can find comfort in that knowledge. Faith is such a beautiful thing. I don't know how people live without it. You're a strong lady and I know that with God's help you will be fine.

Sending you BIG HUGS!! ;)

[Manatee25]

Oh Jazzy!! It is so good to see you back on here. So much you have been through and my prayers are still with you. Do take it easy as there is still much ahead for you. We love you and will always be here for you!

[*eng*]

Jazz you are one special lady, so pleased you are back x :)

[CrystalInMinn]

Jazz, glad to have you back! Take care. You are still in my thoughts.

[lila2002]

Jazz, so good to see you back here. We missed you all so much.
so happy to hear your health is so much better
keep taking it easy now!
healing will come one day at a time.
take care
BIG ((HUGZZZ)) and a kiss

[omajo]

Jazz I'm glad you're back. Take care and take it easy, my prayers still for you
oxox

[srussell]

Hi Jazz. nice to see you back!

[wolvsie35]

Linda sweetie, it was so nice to come home from Vegas a see a post from you!!!!! This will all take some time to heal...So don't rush into everything at once, k? I wish you lots of happiness in your new place and pray it helps you get better...We sure miss you around here...Just take one day at a time, we are all here for you...Love ya bunches..((HUGS)) :D

[Moonfairy]

Jazz,this is the best news I've had in ages!Although I don't know you very well,I followed your story through the group and felt so sad about everything you had to go through.I will be praying that you feel better real soon and can join us on SBM again.Going into your daughters room was a heart breaking thing to do for you but someday I think you will start to make peace with what happened.Take care off yourself and you know where to find us if you ever need someone to talk to when things get to much.

[mswizard]

It's wonderful to have you back "home" Jazz. I want you to know that you are NEVER far from my thoughts and prayers!
BIG (((((((HUGGGGSSSSSS)))))))

[evee]

Welcome back Jazz. It is so good to hear from you. They say time is the great healer and it surely is. You'll never forget but it will get easier. Now you must look out for yourself and get strong again. I wish you lots of good fortune in your new apartment, and happier times ahead for you and the family.
xxoo
Evee

[Pink Lollipop]

Hi Linda,

God will always watch over us.. have faith in him and he will never fail you. Take care. :)