Letter from Mary Ann

[eye]

Hi Irene,
Wow ,Onie & Crops are coming to see You....Wish I could come too, what a time we would have :)

I am doing about 50% Better, My walking is slow, but I don't need my walker any more...my R eye was also effected, but Thank The Lord it is back to normal...I am finished with Physical Therapy, as I can do all my therapys myself....I just wish I could get my strength back ( the Drs say it will take a year ) :(

My Left hand is still painful, with the Arthritis in my wrist and finger joints....( I can't make a fist, or use it to lift heavy objects ) So I have to see a specialist on July 13, Hopefully he can help me to get more useage out of my hand....

I ask all the questions as to the reason why I got Sepsis...The Answer I got is, " Just Dumb Luck..."
As I don't believe in Luck, I Feel God has His Reasons...My Angel Scotty came to me as I was in a coma, He said " Mommy, I Love You, but you can't come now....They need you more...." And with a touch of his Kiss, I awoke....I have been fighting ever since....5 People had what I had, I am the only one who lived...
Really makes me Wonder why me....I have always had a Strong Faith, and know that God has a plan for us all, but I still am lost as too the reasons why this all happened.

I get so mad at myself for getting so tired as I want to become part of the Max Community again, I Miss You Too and All my Sisters....and I feel so Lost as to what you All have been up too...My Sweet Hubby is getting me a Lap top so I can sit in my Lounge Chair and work on Picts, He was such a devoted Man, Never missed a day coming to the Hospital...My Hubby, Children and Grand-Babies where my Heart & Soul, and You and my Max Family was the Blood that gave me the Strength I needed. I read Every E-Card,and cried alot as I felt I Let Everyone Down...But I am truly trying to get my old creative side going....us Nurses make the worst Patients, as we hate waiting ...

Love You Lil Sis, (((((((HUGS))))))) Xs a Trillion
XXXXXXXOOOOOOO
Mary Ann aka MA3
PS You can share this letter with our Sisters if you want :)

[angelwithin]

aww bless her heart xx

message for Maryann

i had major surgery a few years back after a long time of being ill and bed bound for what seemed eternity, it does get easier and the strength does come back........ slowly!

Just hang in there girl ever day is one step closer to being back to full health - i hear your frustration with your own efforts, just remember this (i was given this piece of advice and it helped)

''you only have once chance to heal so dont rush back into doing things you feel you 'should' be doing, take your time and allow your body time to heal properly...there are no second chances when healing so get it right the first time''

in a year or two you will be looking back and all this will be a dull distant memory - just concentrate on getting through one day at a time

love fiona xxx

ps i also had a similar experience and met my angel son who told me i had to come back as i had 'work' to do, when they were battling to bring me back after the anesthetic as i had some complications, i cherish the fact those complications and my illness gave me the oppotunity to meet him once again xxx xxx

[makeyesup]

Thanks Eye for sharing your letter from MaryAnn. Feel that I have gotten to know so many people here and they are now friends and family, (those words are synonymous).

MaryAnn is and will be kept in my prayers. She is such a beautiful person and I believe God knows we all need people like her around.

[wolvsie35]

Thanks EYE for sharing...I must have got lost in the loop, cause I wasn't sure where she has been...

to Ma3, I hope you recover in good health...God is obviously watching over you...and you will be in my prayers..Can't wait to see you back here with us girls...Get well soon...We miss ya around here...Love ya..xoxo

[Granny]

Eye, thank you for sharing this, you're so kind, and have made us so happy to be able to be a part of it.

MaryAnn, please, take care of yourself. You could never disappoint us if you tried. We are just so grateful to have you back. Baby steps is what it takes. I know, I endured a terrible illness about 20 years ago. Every day I would get down on my knees and begged to die, I was in so much pain. The worse was thinking that it would never stop, but it did. It just takes time. Like the other girls said, it will get better. So, hang in there, baby. Like we say in the old country... "You're a hard banana to peel!".

;)

[pkdoll]

Thank you for sharing this Eye.

MaryAnn it is good to hear you are slowly recovering. I never really heard of your illness and it's a miracle you are still with us. Just take your time-and you will be so happy you did when you start feeling really good. Miss you!

[crops2dawn]

Oh Eye THANKSSS SO MUCH!!!! Its always a great day when we hear from MaryAnn.
And to you Ma, Your letter gave me the chills, seeing Scotty and all, Isnt that the best feeling in the world, After my Mother died it was a long time before I saw her in my dream, I think I wished so hard for it to happen and when I stopped wishing and out the clear blue sky, I finally saw her, I wanted to go with her soooo bad, but she too told me it wasnt time, she gave me a hug and kiss and went back towards the light, the love that I felt in that dream I have NEVER felt anything like that in my entire life. and apparently I didnt go with her that night, still not sure why and what the reason is I am still here, and heck I might never know. But anyway I just wanted ya to know, I had the same thing happen. You keep taking the steps you need to take in order to get well totally. You have not disappointed ANYONE in here! We love ya and miss ya and just want you to be happy!! Take Care Sweetie!!!! Sending ya MEGA HUGZZZZZ and Kissezzzz!

[Manatee25]

So good to hear from Mary Ann. Thanks for sharing the letter Eye.

Mary Ann you are deeply loved here and though we want you back as much as you want to be back it is better for you to heal and rest now. You have been thru much and still have much to endure but you are here still for a reason and you will make it. Great big hugs!
Tina

[*eng*]

How wonderful to read this letter, thank you eye, that is one of the best shared posts I have read. So heartwarmin to know Mary Ann is making progress. Slow maybe but it's in the right direction. Experiences she has had are mind blowing and I'm sure of enormous comfort to her. Bless both of you xxx

[AmeliasMuma]

Thank you so much for sharing Eye.

I can't say that I know what you are going through Mary Ann but I will say this. There is no way that you could ever let us down. Being ill does not let us down, it makes you and us stronger in the long run. Be at peace with yourself sweet Mary, there was nothing you could have done but look at what you have accomplished since. You are alive, you are about 50% better, you will continue to get better and you will eventually be well again. I for one am so proud of what you have done. Ya hear me ... PROUD ..... thats what I am. :D

[rosana brito]

Eye, you angel adorable! These days I had thought, the one that he had with Mary Ann, they make days that not this here in this forum. I already was worried, I am immensely grateful for you to have in displayed this ok, I ask for to the God for it all the nights, e I have certainty that it is well, e soon it will be much happy e without pains, it e strong girl now! Plus a time, thanks Eye


Kisses (((( in case that it speaks with Mary, it says, who we are here twisting for its brief one reestablishment , e that we love it much!

[MaggieMae]

Thank you, Eye, for sharing this wonderful post! It is so great to hear from Mary Ann and to know she is recovering her strength day by day!

[Smile]

Hello Mary Ann:
I am so glad to hear your improving and that Eye has written you and shared this letter with us. As she has said, I have invited Onie and Carol to stay at my cottage next year and they will also get to visit Eye. Any one of my Scrapville friends are welcomed at my place. There is also a resort beside me that has lovely cottages that they rent out. If you get a chance look it up. It is called" Four Season's Retreat" and is located in Economy, Nova Scotia , Canada. Wouldn't it be nice to get us all together. You see I come from a family of 11 and my mom always made room for more. lol Keep up that wonderful faith of yours and always share it with us, for you are special.......Love Smile.....Lois

[OnieRN]

MaryAnn, Get feeling better and come with Crops and I to meet Smile and Eye. I'll even give you my bed and will take the coach. LOL You have to admit, it is something to look forward too!!!

I too had an experience where my Angel son, Donnie came to me. It was at the 7 year anniversary of when he died, I was told that I was going to get my prayer answered. 7 months later, on his birthday, I was notified that I was going to get my son Joshua. Josh was adopted! The miracle, I was given Josh from a private individual, when he was born. It was a surprize, as I was not looking to adopt. I gave up a long time before. He told me that he loved me and that he had to go. He gave me a kiss and left. My 7 years of grieving had been so painful but this was the true begining of it stopping. I believe our angels come see us when we most need them.

Eye, it is so wonderful that you were able to share this letter with all of us! :)

[Kazr]

Thank you Eye for sharing this wonderful letter from Mary Ann!
To you Mary Ann I am so happy to hear you are on the mend again, it will be a slow process & please don't rush it for our sakes, we know you will return to us when the time is right :).
As to why you got the sepsis, there is never any logical answers to that, we are just thankful you are going to be ok.
hugs Karyn xxxxxxxxxxxx

[jazzieal]

Thanks eye for sharing your letter....and Thank You God that Mary Ann was the one out of 5 that lived...dont stress about it Mary Ann, in due time God will let you know his plan for you...out of all the sickness and pain God let you see Scottie again and that was a blessing..and where do you get that you let us down....you could NEVER do that..we have been here for you and will continue to be here for you...we loves you lots and lots and lots....You make beautiful things and give to us..but heavens thats not why we love you...we love you because you are you..a sweet loving kind friend with a heart full of love for everyone..all I want is to see you be able to be back with us..making your wonderful comments in the gallery, giving us encouragement and making your beauiful pages for us to see...and scraplift..hehehe..so you just concentrate on getting well and stop worrying about unimportant things..love you and big huggs jazz