making some very difficult decisions

[mswizard]

I debated on if I should even post this or not. Another hard decision. I think the only reason I chose to was Michelle's Post just to show her things could be worse (I love ya Shell;)) On February 7th I took my son to school and had a heart attack on the way home. I was able to drive myself to the hospital although to this day I don't remember how. I was given Nitro pills and Paste and the pain went away but my breathing was real bad. I had x-rays and a CT. They found I have Pulmonary Emboli in my right lung. Long story short, it seems I have cancer that had caused clots to break off and get to my lungs. The cancer had spread into my Lymph nodes. I consider myself lucky because the clots will probably kill me before the cancer can. I have made most of my arrangements, the hardest being the ones involving the younger children. We have moved my oldest daughter back from NC to help me and my older sons will be arriving soon. I do not know how long I have. I asked not to know. I am ok and I have made my peace. I feel good some days and hard to breathe others but I have decided to live what is left of my life talking about a future and I wake up each day only asking for just one more. So Michelle, it can be worse. Live your life like there is no tomorrow. I pray for you each and every day and hope you get your kidneys. I know you will, good people like you deserve them.
I have been working on scrap books for the kids and I hope I can get them done but I am also writing journals for all the girls to read on special days in their lives. So much to do and time? Who knows. I want to be here in the fall when Emily starts pre-school. That is my last goal. I don't plan on leaving SBM until I can't sit at my computer anymore
My husband is having a hard time with this and we haven't explained the extent of my illness to the children. Hard to do when you have FaceBook and ppl asking you all the time so I lie :(. This is by no means Goodbye. Not yet. I will decide when I am ready!

[Marion]

I don't know how to respond Liz! Just sitting here stunned! I am soooo sorry and just don't know what to say! I will be praying for you and yours. If you need help with your scrapbook, I can help. You can email me some of your pix and I will turn them into pages.
Your buddy, Marion

[Edina]

I'll be giving my kids an extra kiss tonight for sure. You'll be in my thoughts even though I don't think we have ever really interacted. I hope you fill your days with happy thoughts and make some great memories for your children. They will remember your strength and grace with which you seem to be handling this.

[sacannon]

Oh wow Liz, I pop in here once in a while and sure didn't expect to find this thread. I can't imagine what you are going through. Making the scrapbooks and journals for the kids is a great idea. But, please make sure you take care of yourself too, the best that you can.

[mh51]

I am so sad... just can't put my thoughts & emotions into words.
My heart is breaking.
Love & prayers coming your way for you and your family.
xxx

[wolvsie35]

My dear friend Liz....I cried reading this and signed off...then I had to come back and say something...But what do I say? I am so sad over this...You are a wonderful person and something like this should not be happening to you...You have done so much in your life for you family..especially your children and I admire you for that....I would never listen to doctors pin pointing your last day anyways....No one can predict that...It's all in spirit and attitude, something you have both of...So please, don't ever give up or lose the faith...Your kids need you...
I will be praying for you....everyday.....Please keep me informed...and if you EVER need to talk, I'm here for you hun...May God be with you....((HUGS)) I love ya gf!

[angelwithin]

bless you Liz, sending love and healing to you, do not give up, you will get through this, fight as hard as you can xxxxx

[autisticwonder]

Shocked!! Bless you Liz!! My heart is very heavy now!! Have been reading all about the Gerson Therapy and it's a cure for Cancer and other things!! Simply, juicing fresh fruits and vegetables 13 times a day and coffee enema's to name a few!! Please..it can't hurt to try!! I live by it!! HUGS sweetie!! Keep us posted!! PLEASE!!

[eye]

Oh whiz I luv you.If I could grab you I would squeeze you so hard.I know one thing you are one strong women.The strength you have is wonderful.You are such a kind sweet thoughtful person.When I read this I felt like a dagger in my heart.Though we never met I feel in my heart you are such a good friend.I will help you with your scrapping as well if you send me your photos.I may live far away but I am here for you.Please use this site as your journel so we can be here for you.My heart is broken with this sad news.Bless you xo.

[Marion]

Maybe we can take this on as a project and help you with your scrapbooks. I am sure there are many here that would be willing to help. Just let us know what we can do to help, and in the meantime, you are in our prayers.

[pkdoll]

Oh Liz!! I am so shocked and can hardly compose myself. This is the last thing I was expecting to read. You know I have been feeling sorry for myself because I lost my job on Monday and didn't know what I was going to do; and than I read this and my troubles don't compare whatsoever to what you are dealing with. :( My heart goes out to you and your loving family. Please do try and fight as hard as you can for as long as you can.
AND like Marion said-if you need any help getting some pages done please let us know and we will be willing to help you out as much as we can. Sending prayers to you and your family.

[OnieRN]

Oh Liz, I haven't been on here in awhile but I am in tears. I remember how much we shared in the pregnancy and the bring Emily into the world. As I was reading all the posts from SBM members, I noticed they are written from the original SBM family. We have share so much with each other these past 5 years. Please know that are here for you and your cherished by all of us. I was remembering putting pages together for Emily. I would be honored to help you with some of those pages too. Just remember to keep up the faith, never give up, and please keep us posted.

[knzus]

I ditto everything they all said... because I can't think of anything that hasn't already been said. Except to add my love for you along with everyone else's. You and your family remain a cherished part of our own family here. I will send up a bigger heaping of prayers for you on top of those I already do. Love you, Liz Whiz! ♥

[makeyesup]

So very sorry to hear this, you have had so many perils to face. Prayers are with you and all of your family. Keep looking up and believing in God, we will all pray for you. I too will make pages for you if you send in photos.

[angelwithin]

Liz if you want any of my store templates set just say xxx

[mswizard]

You ladies are making me weep! Thank you all for the prayers, I may need them. Donna, Thank you for the heads up on alternative treatment..I am looking into it. Thank ALL of you for the offers to help me with my Pages and I may need the help in the very near future, we shall see but at the moment, it is my therapy lol. Fiona, you are a doll for offering your templates! I can't tell you how much you ladies have meant to me theses last few years. I have made some of what I consider very good friends. We may never meet face to face but please know that I think very highly of each and every one of you! Like I said, I am not giving up and I am not going to fill my body with poison like radiation and Chemo. I will keep you informed on what is happening with me. Thank you all again!!!!!

[knzus]

I shall mirror what Fiona said (and kick myself for not thinking of it on my own!)... if you want anything from my store also, just let me know. ♥

[crops2dawn]

Ahhhhh Liz! I just saw Fiona put up on Facebook that there was another message from you, at first I thought there was something wrong with Emily, so of course I run right over here! I'm not to good with keepin up with everyone in here anymore, and lately it seems like I just come to hear bad news, and this is really bad news...I too, don't know what to say, I am in shock with everyone else. I can, however, add to all the prayers that are being said, I know its not much...but I do know that the power of prayer, especially with this group, performs miracles! I pray that God gives you and your family the strength to get through this. Please know that you are in thoughts and I would be more than happy to help you out with layouts, when and if you ever need it, just give a holler....xooxoxo

[pkdoll]

Wiz I have so many memories from this forum--and there is no other forum like this one out there--we have been through a lot here and I remember Granny making the slideshow of Emmy from all the pages we made--and I remember your house fire--and there are soooooo many other memories; good and not so good--but the fact that we have all been here for each other for so long is amazing and it says something about the friendships that can and are formed online everyday. I will continue praying for you and your family---Love you Liz! And just know that we are all here to help you with your scrapbooks if you find that you just can't do it anymore. :)

[sacannon]

I would be glad to help with layouts too Liz, if you should decide you would like help. Just let us know if there is anything we can do to help.

[autisticwonder]

Please, Liz!! Check in with us DAILY if possible!! Fiona knows about the volcanic ashe treatments too!! We want to make you all better!! Love our friendships here!! Healing thoughts and LOTS of LOVE comin at you!! donna

[nanwu]

oh wiz, i hardly ever drop in here anymore, but for some reason this morning i just had to........there is nothing i can say that will make this all better (i wish there was), but i can offer my prayers up for you and your family. I don't scrap much anymore but please feel free to email me if you need help.

[wolvsie35]

Liz, I am willing to give you anything you need to help you out in giving your children the memories they deserve...anything you need from me, just let me know...You know I am here for you...always...

[Gotart]

It is so hard to read this thread. I also thought it was about Emily. I am so, so sorry. My prayers are with you & your family. I am also willing to help with any of your digital needs. I love a good project so please don't hesitate to ask.. Blessings. Terry

[angelwithin]

just bumping this thread up ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ *leaves a trail of love for Liz*

[scrappyaggie48]

My heart goes out to you and sending you lots and lots of prayers May God Give You Strength xoxo

[scrappyaggie48]

Sending you this Angel to protect you xoxo


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[Smile]

My dearest friend I am so sorry for your situation. You are so young and have been such an inspiration to us all. As everyone has said, I do not know what to say. We are worlds apart but we have become so close especially because of Emmy. You have showed what love really is. They say that there is a reason for God to put us here and a reason when he is ready to call us back. I just know that you have showed all of us what love between a child and mother is all about. For that I send my love and thank you with all my heart and soul. One of the things I have learned is that hope should never be forgotten and I have prayed hopefully that God grant you a much longer life. I feel that you are not through teaching us lessons. So please, God bless you and and answer our prayer's of longevity......xoxoxo

[pkdoll]

Praying for you everyday Liz--hope you are feeling ok today. And hoping tomorrow will be good as well.

[*eng*]

I keep looking at the posts on here and have tried to think of something new to say. Really everything has been said, we all love you and want to help and are all devastated at what has happened. We are so grateful for all the fun and pleasure you have brought to us and want to do anything we can to help you. Thinking of you a lot x